As my body falls heavier and heavier into the suffocating Tempur-pedic bed, pain increases as I recognize the sharp pain, digging into my lower back, as a small toy car. I laugh again. And begin to write.
My purpose? Men and fishers. Today I spent a solid 23 minutes fishing with a little boy and little girl. These children just so happen to be my siblings with the patience of a cat being held back from yarn.
It was my brother's first cast of the day--and almost of his life considering the rarity of fishing in a desert. The line, 15 feet across the water, lay perfectly still, minus the bobbing to and fro from wandering ducks. "This is the most boringist thing ever." He stated defeatedly after 6.5 minutes. "Why don't the fish come? I have everything I need."
Gently, and as patiently as possible, we'd help them cast out their lines to obtain the desirable prize of a smelly fish. With each swish of the poll, frustration increased. "Why do people even like doing this?" My sister exclaimed. "It's crazy."
I chuckled and said, "It's more than getting the fish, it's the experience that drives you here."
Mid-chuckle, I paused. That was it. That was my answer. To life's wonder of "why, if I'm doing everything I'm supposed to, am I not feeling successful?"
How often does our Father help us, patiently, kindly, and consistently? How immeasurable is His mercy and love? How often do we find ourselves lost in a world where the only thing we have to hold onto is a pole with a thin line, waiting for the bobber to fully submerge in the water?
We feel hopeless and impatient. But it's the journey that blesses us and morphs us into true fishermen. Experts in the art of obtaining that smelly fish. And it doesn't always end up being the biggest, prettiest one! Often we fail to realize the fish has been biting the whole time. We may even feel like this journey of life is the "boringist thing ever."
Thank God for his Son; for the Atonement of Jesus Christ; which allows us to visualize the end from the beginning but also allows us to bare life's "boringist" times. And for that matter, times of sheer disappoint.
We have been given a gift--the gift of baring all things with enduring patience and hope.
And for me? That's what hope is. Holding on to a fishing pole, knowing that eventually the fish will follow through with a big ole bite--never letting go. If not, faith makes us cast that line back every time.
And God always follow through.